When i blow your little planet into smitherines...

"It's alright to tell me what you think about me
I won't try to argue or hold it against you
I know that you're leaving you must have your reasons
The season is calling and your pictures are falling down

The steps that I retrace the sad look on your face
The timing and structure did you hear he &@#%*& her?
A day late a buck short I'm writing the report
On losing and failing when I move I'm flailing now

and it'll happen once again I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well I guess this is growing up

And maybe I'll see you at a movie sneak preview
You'll show up and walk by on the arm of that guy
And I'll smile and you'll wave we'll pretend it's okay
The charade it won't last when he's gone I won't come back

And it'll happen once again
You'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
And sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And you've been there for too long
To face this on your own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up
Well, I guess this is growing up"


-BLINK 182




Just thinking about  growing up today... My best friend is almost graduated and I'm going to be senior. its so weird. all the hot guys that are seniors now are going to be gone in mere months and leaving on their missions and I'll probably never see them again. I cant wait to do stuff big kids do but I will forever be in the mind set of highschool. its way to much fun and exciting. I'm gonna miss all my friends one day when we all go our seperate ways and probably never see eachother ever again.... Gahh thats so weird. Pretty sure my childish mind is just imagining this huge builidng with endless food and video games that all my friends and I are going to live in together forever until we die. haha kinda dumb but until i actually experience life thats just what my mind will think.  Anyway i REALLY hope i will still stay close to people like jazz and storm and mckay. not that they are more important but they are just the first four people i think of. anywho...

"WE CANT REWIND WE'VE COME TOO FAR"

Multiple Choice.

It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's hand

So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be

And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

"Im So Into You, But Im Way Too Smart For You."

I love actually having time to play the guitar and ukulele(: i feel so calm now that i have time to do stuff i want to. i just learned the following the last two days: if i ever leave this world alive, skullcrusher mountain, and your brains(: freaking awesome songs by the way(:

I have a lot bottle inside right now.

I'm feeling a lot of things right now.

I have a lot say.

I don't know how to let it all out

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing

I don't know if what I did was the right choice

so i will express how I'm feeling through the musical talent of Forrest Kline...
Its describes it perfectly
Enjoy....

"Oh dear love, such a chore
Something you've got but you never show
It's like some deed, left undone
or a reap you'll never sow

It's like you'll never get it done
It's like you'll never get it done
It's like you'll... never get it... done.

Where's your heart? where's your head?
Girl, your body's in my bed.
I know it's hard to forget, every word we've said

But it's like you'll never let it go
It's like you'll never let it go
It's you'll.. never..let it go!

Oh I know it's hard! of a lover, I don't know just where you are,
I've been tryin' different ways to find your lover's heart
End up with your cold shoulder, uh oh
**Oh I am not crumblin', Oh the fact that i'm laughin' means "it's done" to me **
It may never be the way we thought it ought to be
Lovers never sleep alone, uh oh!

Oh my god, what a mess!
Oo it is, I must confess
Every word I say to you, sweep up the floor, underneath the rug

Oh it's like we'll never clean it up

it's like we'll never clean it up!
It's like we'll, never..clean it up!

I know it's hard! of a lover, I don't know just where you are
I've been tryin' different ways to find your lover's heart
End up with your cold shoulder, uh oh
**Oh I am not crumblin', Oh the fact that i'm laughin' means "it's done" to me **

It may never be the way we thought it ought to be

Lovers never sleep alone, uh oh!

And you sleep alone
And you sleep alone
And you sleep alone
'Cause you sleep alone!

Oh I know it's hard! of a lover, I don't know just where you are
I've been tryin' different ways to find your lover's heart
End up with your cold shoulder, uh oh
**Oh I am not crumblin', Oh the fact that i'm laughin' means "it's done" to me **
It may never be the way we thought it ought to be
Lovers never sleep alone, no ho!"

Allison Weiss was right all along.

"I was an Island, before You came along"

"Waiting for Something but i don't Know what i Want"

"I can't say that Life without you isn't Hard"

 "It's a Big world and I'm Old news to You"

"There is a million ways that I could mess it up

I always do."

Im seeing Stars...

If I am lost for a day; try to find me

But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me

All of the things that I thought were so easy

Just got harder and harder each day

December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right

While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home

Who waits up for me all through the night

Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive

Calendar Girl who's in love with the world Stay alive

I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do

And when I awoke I was sure it was true

I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky

And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die

But I can't live forever,I can't always be

One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea

The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross

And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world

Stay Alive

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive

January, February, March, April, May I'm alive

June, July, August, September,October I'm alive

November, December, you all through the winter, I'm alive

I'm alive 

This weekend i experienced:

 fun, thrills, fright, disappointment, old memories, old friends, theme songs, anger, hyperness, surprise, happiness, boredom, poverty, procrastination, guilt, and all around amazing memories that i will always look back on(:

"Im not sayin it was your fault, although you coulda done more"

"Just don't let me down, just don't let me down, and hold on to your kite."

Time Heals All Wounds.

The Worst Fights Are With The People You Love.

Why Do You Bite The Hand That Feeds You?

The Natural Man Is An Enemy To God.

There's An App For That.

The Female Is Always Right.

Life has alot of unexpected turns and flips. Hold onto something for dear life, and dont fall off.

Jar Head.

"A dual tone under wall

The selfless fool who hoped he'd save us all

He never dreamt of such sterile hands,

You keep them folded in your lap,

Or raise them up to beg for scraps,

You know, he's holding you down,

With the tips of his fingers just the same,

Will you be pulled from the ocean,

But just a minute too late,

Or changed by a potion,

And find a handsome young mate,

For you to love."

"Just put yourself in my new hooves,

And see that I do what I do,

Because the old guard still offend,

We got nothing left on which we depend,

So we waste every ounce,

Of your bright blood,

And off with their heads,"

"You're entertaining any doubt,

Because you had to know that I was fond of you,

Fond of Y-O-U,

Though I knew you masked your disdain.

I can see that change was just too hard for us,

Hard for us.

You always had to hold the reigns,

But where I'm headed, you just don't know the way."

"Hold your glass up, hold it in
Never betray the way you've always known it is.
One day i'll be wondering how
I got so old just wondering how
I never got cold wearing nothing in the snow."

- The Shins

Pretty Obsessed Right Now...

Ode to Zooey Deschanel.

Been a pretty insane, intense, eventful weekend and tuesday....

Cut my bangs to straight bangs...

i freaking love it(:

before i had a second thought i disappeared into my room with a pair of scissors....

i will give the credit to the fact i watched 500 days of summer 3 TIMES yesterday(:

i love that movie with all my soul and being(:

This last weekend i have been talking and hanging out with Jared Beatty... ALOT

he is one of the coolest sweetest guys i know like for reals...

im super excited for Homecoming with him(:

Life is good(:

Friends are good(:

School is the opposite but whatever(:

And i feel crazy impulsive and adventurous(:

Stay Frosty.