Fresh-woman in love.

Today I moved in to my dorm at Utah State. i havent written in a couple months because life has been crazy and not too interesting..... I guess i went on that europe trip, and graduated, but my only responses when people ask how those things were are "aweome!" "crazy!" "so fun!" and "the scariest thing of my life"... so yeah my life was pretty perfectly adequite this summer.... and now im all grown up and living the life.

oh! and ya know im in love with the best guy i have ever met in the whole entire world.... Kaden is the best thing that has ever happened to me. he is my best friend and no guy will be better for me. cheesey i know but whatever! i dont care "Im in love, Im in love, and I dont care who knows it!" but really. and guess who likes him alot and wants me and him to work out in the long run? MY FATHER. he never likes the boys  i date or event the fact im dating boys... its crazy.

long story short.... me and kaden had to break up before i moved out.... so like two days ago.... and im pretty much a mess... i feel bad for jade (my roomate) who has to deal with me right now. i have kept it together pretty good except for the night he kissed me goodnight and my way to work the next day.... i hate crying but everytime i think about it i tear up.... i hate feeling like this and honestly i havent felt like this is in so long (over a year) i forgot how crappy it felt. he made me so happy and its my fault we had to break up. its the worst feeling i have felt thus far. but i will try my hardest to make it work. i mean if my mom had it her way she would make up get married right now! she adores him. my brother told me he wants him as a brother in law. he looks up to him so much and wants to be like him. carter is a brat to him but i know she likes him. i just feel like a better person around him. he makes me smile and we fit together like puzzle peices. we laugh, we pretend to argue, he is protective and i love it. anyway ill shut up about my feelings.

Today i moved in! i was one of the first people here. My mom and my aunt brought me up. I love them to death! we had so much fun. they kinda looked like my lesbian moms hahaha it was pretty awesome. i brought alot of crap and i have never been so tired and sweaty just from walking up stairs... i just finished setting up my room an hour ago. i really like it. everything fits in the room. its not as crappy as i thought. my mom cried in the end and i told her to stop. haha its was cute tho. and i miss my room. haha i miss my boyfriend. i miss having food all the time. i miss home cooked meals. i miss my friends... but im excited and this will be an adventure.

these are just the beginning of my life adventure:

goodnight universe. you and all your tragic mysteries.

A Knight for a Dork.

I'm really excited for prom everyone(: I get to go with my epic boyfriend/Best friend of all time(: AKA Kaden Stanley Cook. (: I love this kid and Im so happy to spend my last highschool dance with such a rad person(: he has told me he is taking me but said he still has to ask me in a cute way. He told Becca and she said it fricken adorable so that makes me way excited for whatever the heck it is(: also, my dress is from the eighties. like 60 candles, pretty in pink, kind of dress. Its a dorky idea but I kinda digg it. It looks a little something like this:

super old school.... anyway I just wanted to share.(: 

Let's Skip the Charades.

Its been quite a while blog. I have been going crazy with everything i am a part of this year. Just had the senior foam party yesterday.... (awesome p.s.) and Homecoming is is two weeks.

speaking of the devil.... i got asked last night by none other than Sugar Daddy(: he left a note frozen inside of a giant frozen hunk of ice... "now that we have broken the ice, will you go to homecoming with me?" clever boy(; anyway he is so not good hiding the fact that he is gonna ask me haha what a loser(: but it was awesome(: we are gonna have the best time ever(:

dont have much to really say today (sorry blog) but....I love senior year... just in case you were curious(:

I want this.

life's too short to even care at all, oh woahhh....

New Favorite Band:
A very attractive fellow from lehi that i met on the bus home from dixie offered to show me this band.
they are called Young the Giant. quite smashing band(: i recommend them(:

I have not written in a while. like at lease two weeks haha still having a writing block

I will however share with you things that have happened recently...

got back from girls camp just saturday. it was my last year and for some reason it was the one with the most bad luck. haha it rained. our tent leaked. we had to set up a new one. and i was the worst mood really. im good at hiding it tho haha(: it was generally an ok year at girls camp and im glad i went!

I am still a thing with Sugar Daddy(: im worried about whats gonna happen during school but i guess we will see. I still really like him but im not really keen to the idea of a boyfriend. just doesnt sound like the best thing for my senior year haha.  and i want to date around still. especially that really cute kid from lehi that is my music soul mate haha(: but anyway i just hope this all goes well...

im moving up to the loft this week!!(: im so pumped.... i should probably be up there now cleaning out the closet haha but ill get to it. i also got some new sweet paintings for my walls(: one is this metal jesus painting thing and then a comic book pic of lips haha. way cool.

next week im going to California! im so ready to just be on the beach(: me storm and kilee are gonna have a blast(: we better considering we will be stuck in a car with each other for a good 24 hours all together haha(:

Also at our meeting this morning me and mckilee got our theme for homecoming approved!! oh yeah masquerade.... so rad(:

I hope you all enjoy your last month of summer(:

some pics ive taken recently::

The World Needs More Zelda Remixes

‎"you may think you are good at something, but there will always be a little Asain kid who is better than you"

Quote of the....life
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I have had A writing block for like.... almost three weeks now. Just havent had much to write about really.... and still kinda dont. I have been just having too much fun(: summer lovin', summer eating, summer skin frying. the usual(: anyway i still dont have much to talk about so i will share this lovely picture of me and kaden from today's adventure. went riding on his dune buggy and ran into what felt like a lake of mud (it was really just a puddle):P anywho here it is

hope you are all having a blast filled summer(:

"It's Fluffy...It's Pink... And I Want It!"

Got back this week from my Student Council Retreat(: it was pretty sick actually. we hit a few speed bumps along the week but hey maybe thats just how its gonna be this whole year... anyway it was awesome. i would go way into detail but ill explain why i wont in my next upcoming paragraph....

Sunday night i went and slept on the streets with provo with morg, mitch, nick, and spencer. it was a great night(: filled with goldfish, lotion, and a huge fire that someone one started. it was like 15 feet high. it was pretty crazy... anywho. i didnt get there till midnight but i didnt miss much. we stayed up till like two thirty and spencer left before we went to bed. anyway so me, mitch, nick, and morgan shared an air mattress that was set up in the middle of the sidewalk and tried to catch some shut eye.... i was out like a rock. i can sleep through anything... including four in morning make out sessions going on right next to me!   morgan and nick were just having a grand ole time with me and mitch just laying right next to them! haha it was a little weird when i woke up and she told me not gonna lie. not a big deal tho just funny(:

I have found a new band.... and it turns out this new band is actually my cousin, luke's band. he is a way cool singer(: and i like his stuff. i mean in knew was into music but man his band was a big surprise... look up the band "The Ku". super good. my favorite songs are "bing" "leaving" and "ranges"
just thought i would share that(:

so im diggin this summer fling thing with kaden (aka sugar daddy)(: so far we have had just a blast just hanging out, driving around, eating food, the works. he is just the coolest kid(: he's got his head on his shoulders, my parents love him, my friends (for once) think he is cool, its just great(:

i dyed brandon's hair tuesday night... well more like bleached... turned out like gold. he has a gold head now(; pretty awesome(:

next week is dixie... super excited(:

peace out girl scout

100th post, 12th man.

This is my... One Hundredth Post! (insert cool movie guy voice)

wow so much to say on this one today(: well not really it just feels that way(:
Last night felt like an eighties movie to say the least...
I was sitting at home when my good friend Sugar Daddy texted me to ask if i wanted to hang out
this is the sugar daddy that i have a crush on(:
so I picked him up and we went and got some ice-cream at the oh so simple ice-cream shop
we were there for like an hour, eating our ice-cream, talking, and arguing about who would win in a fight, superman or the green lantern
super man duhhh...
but we were having a grand ole time.
after wards we didn't really know what to do so we went to mo to mountain to just hang out
(sunset and everything, just perfect)
we sat on yonder peeing rock and talked some more
i swear me and that kid never run out of things to talk about!
anyway at some point he started tickling me
and because of the fact i was super ticklish i almost like fell off the mountain
but then i remembered the very fact that he is also VERY ticklish.
so at this point it was just a huge tickling war
a bit cheesy i know
and oh my gosh
if you tickle this kid enough he makes this loud like ban chi noise!
funniest thing i have ever heard(:
anyway i swear we were going to have a movie moment and he was going to just smack one on me .
but alas it did not happen
we headed down the mountain and got in my car
we then sat there and argued some more about who would win in the fight between superman and the green lantern.
we decided to end it with a game of rock paper scissors
stupid i know
but it just happened haha
lets just say he won the game and while celebrating his triumph...
he kissed me(:

pretty great story huh?
i thought it was pretty awesome(:

with butter flies and defeat
Tay ✌

That Girl has Some Lady Balls.

this first "official" week of summer has been... super rad(: spent the first third with my best friends, the second third with a new kid (that i possible have a thing for (long story, kinda messy,ask me later)) and starting today the last third studying for the ACT and celebrating my uncle on saturday night. i dont know about you guys but my week has been great(: this month is going to be short on cash but i think i can manage. as long as a dont drive and i dont eat out (unless i have gift certificates) then i will be set to save up for the month of JULY which is gonna be uber crazy(: i get to go to Dixie with my stud co, road trip to california with some of my best friends, and then my last girls camp. the girls camp thing is ehh not that exciting but man oh man i am excited for Dixie and California(: this summer is going to be awesome(:

no on the subject of this said boy... I call him sugar daddy. not because i made that name up... but because he specifically asked me to call him that haha(: he is a really funny kid and i like hanging out with him. we never run out of things to talk about. he is a cute kid.(: i like him(:

to my best friend morgan: i cant believe your going to college in a week... Im gonna miss you alot so you better come visit a lot(:

to my other best friend kilee: i wish you would come back from girls camp already,,, i miss your face(: we will hike a mountain when you get back(: and we have many stories to swap(:

these are the many photos to show how my first week and a half of summer went(:

 {henna tatoos for the boys, me and my best bro, carnival, seven peaks, adventures with mo, kaden, and cole, driving, and demo derby}
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with natural curls and lovin it,
Tay ✌♥☀

Flash Floods of Pain.

So yesterday i went on a date with a boy. we will call this boy weirdy beardy. or WB. anyways. we hadnt hung out or even talked much since a certain event occurance last fall. I thought this would be a great time to catch up and maybe become better friends like i had been wanting for a long time. well we did go on this date, we went and saw kung fu panda, split a banana split, and went up to "makout out point" to talk. no makeout i promise haha. but he talked about his life problems for a while and i listened. he got choked up about his brother on his mission. which was really cool. we talked about testimony stuff and about the church. it was a really nice talk. but then he talked about us and some things that he should have told me a long time ago. I wont go into much detail but lets just say it was really hard to hear.  and since this same kinda thing has happened to me before with other guys, it hurt alot more. I mean i try to see the best in people (especially boys i have feelings for) and i try to push aside the things wrong or the things that need to be fixed. I want people to be as good as i see them. but of coarse they never are. WB just told me pretty much i was a rebound and how terrible he felt about it. he wished he picked a better timing for all of it. it was horrible timing and if we had dating, for example, right now, all of the fighting and hate would have not happened. ( or at least 100 times less). I really hurt to hear. I was bawling like a new born baby. but after all of it.... i forgive him. I mean i cant do anything about it now, its done, and you know what? i dont regret it. I cared about WB and still do.

times like these really make you think.... what is everyone else thinking right now? are they faithful, are they real friends, or do they just pretend. either way, why freak about it. there is absolutley nothing you can do but see the best in them and hope.... hope its the real thing.

With immense gratitude and accommodation,

Tay ✌

12 GB...

So.
Just had my first professional photo op this weekend(: and honesty I freakin loved it. I really think I found my calling in life. I feel so happy when im capturing some one's happy face. I live to click that shutter button(: here is how they turned out:

{more at http://www.facebook.com/pages/TEJ-Photography/158039527588825 (: }


On a different note....
I really am so so happy the year is alomst over.... one more real day left....to bad its the hardest day yet:p
but after that i go to the stomp, get my yearbook. and thenn....year book day! I really love this day
I love getting little messages in my yearbook...
Its so exciting! :D

on a different different note....
boys suck. I talked with my dear cousin morgan about this last night (with freaking storm in the room what the heck?) we spoke about or boy stories and i explained to he that at this point I find it so freaking hard to trust guys anymore. like in the back of my head a little man with a microphone is telling me all guys are douch bags and will hurt me eventually no matter what. and honestly i believe this little man. I feel like a cant open up to any guys anymore. (except storm and mckay... bFF's duhh) i dont know. it sucks but i feel like im just in this ditch. i mean sure i still like some guys but i always tell myself that its pointless and hopeless. i dont mean to be morbid ladies and gentlemen...im far from a morbid person. its like hard to explain i guess.... ask me about later.

anywho i hope you all had a great sabbath day(: I know i did(: