Fresh-woman in love.

Today I moved in to my dorm at Utah State. i havent written in a couple months because life has been crazy and not too interesting..... I guess i went on that europe trip, and graduated, but my only responses when people ask how those things were are "aweome!" "crazy!" "so fun!" and "the scariest thing of my life"... so yeah my life was pretty perfectly adequite this summer.... and now im all grown up and living the life.

oh! and ya know im in love with the best guy i have ever met in the whole entire world.... Kaden is the best thing that has ever happened to me. he is my best friend and no guy will be better for me. cheesey i know but whatever! i dont care "Im in love, Im in love, and I dont care who knows it!" but really. and guess who likes him alot and wants me and him to work out in the long run? MY FATHER. he never likes the boys  i date or event the fact im dating boys... its crazy.

long story short.... me and kaden had to break up before i moved out.... so like two days ago.... and im pretty much a mess... i feel bad for jade (my roomate) who has to deal with me right now. i have kept it together pretty good except for the night he kissed me goodnight and my way to work the next day.... i hate crying but everytime i think about it i tear up.... i hate feeling like this and honestly i havent felt like this is in so long (over a year) i forgot how crappy it felt. he made me so happy and its my fault we had to break up. its the worst feeling i have felt thus far. but i will try my hardest to make it work. i mean if my mom had it her way she would make up get married right now! she adores him. my brother told me he wants him as a brother in law. he looks up to him so much and wants to be like him. carter is a brat to him but i know she likes him. i just feel like a better person around him. he makes me smile and we fit together like puzzle peices. we laugh, we pretend to argue, he is protective and i love it. anyway ill shut up about my feelings.

Today i moved in! i was one of the first people here. My mom and my aunt brought me up. I love them to death! we had so much fun. they kinda looked like my lesbian moms hahaha it was pretty awesome. i brought alot of crap and i have never been so tired and sweaty just from walking up stairs... i just finished setting up my room an hour ago. i really like it. everything fits in the room. its not as crappy as i thought. my mom cried in the end and i told her to stop. haha its was cute tho. and i miss my room. haha i miss my boyfriend. i miss having food all the time. i miss home cooked meals. i miss my friends... but im excited and this will be an adventure.

these are just the beginning of my life adventure:

goodnight universe. you and all your tragic mysteries.

Forever and Ever.

Yeah.... I haven't blogged in months. been too lazy but also much too busy. haha oh well.

I have been sorta living up my senior year... depends how you look at it. haha
I love being able to chill most of the time and not having that much work.
I like being able to be in charge of taking pictures and working on things that I personally love to work on.,
but at the same time I have hit a social wall and I am losing my friends slowly but surely.
If I'm not hanging out with Kaden im sitting at home watching tv.
I dont get invited to do things with my friends anymore.
I dont care really except for the fact that deep down its killing me.
and maybe its just my fault. im not really sure but I have also decided to stop trying.
We are getting so close to graduating, and really i will probably never see 80% of them again.
of coarse I will still go visit mitch and his family and call up jazmin once in a while.
I just have reached the point of mountian. about to jump off into college and the rest of my life.
Highschool is only a tad bit of you life and even when it feels like you whole world its not

thanks for listening(:

falling down stairs.

Hell week is over. homecoming was hell. I don't even think hell describes it. but for lack of a better word it was hell. anyway it was just a crazy. im just happy by best bud Katana slept over and made crepes with me because i didn't have a day date. Kaden's gma died last week and the funeral was on homecoming day but we had no control over it so i just spent the day with Katana. so we slept in, made crepes, ate chickfala and after i went and took homecoming pictures for another group. they turned out just like i wanted! i love em(:

Anyway the dance with Kaden was awesome(: he is so freaking cute and awesome(: afterwards we went to betos with katana, her brother, eileen, and nate. we dicovered that betos is haunted by a Whore names Chatta (like the drink?) haha(: its was just a great night(:

Im also starting to really used my new canon film camera and taking a step up my photography. im trying to enter more competitions and work on quality. its fun(: and Katana is my model for like anything when i need her which is rad(:

Oh my goodness. I Officially have a legit senior trip. My good friend caden welsh has invited to me to go on an educational tour with him for lehi.... We are going to Italy and Greece!!!! Holy crap I can't believe it's happening. I'm just freaking out(: ahhhh...

Thats about it kids. too many thing happened over the last couple of week so a cant remember most of it.
have a good day children(:

Woooow.

So much awesome stuff has been happening to me(: i just feel super blessed and almost not worthy to be chosen to do all this stuff.... either way im so happy right now(:

Go Dad(:

Go Deseret News(:

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28 day....because 2 of them were dumb(:

Day 1: Write about your best friend


Morgan Samantha Allred(:
She is my very best friend and has been since....birth haha. the pictures of us together when we were little are so awesome i need to scan them one day(: anyway she is the coolest craziest person I have ever known. She KNOWS how to have a killer time and how to never get in trouble for doing so. I can tell her everything. She always listens and when we laughs about my "problems" then i know they are dumb and i shouldn't worry about them. Our four-in-the-morning talks are the bomb. We could laugh till our stomachs burst. She is so gullible and easy to tease. and when you tease her she is really good at punching you REALLY hard. She is so pretty and is always wearing the coolest clothes. Honestly sometimes our friendship is the one thing that keeps me from being jealous. she is so funny and she could do anything she wanted to. she is a rare friend to find and im so glad she is mine. I am going to miss her like crazy when she leaves this summer for college.... growing apart from her scares me to death. I hope that we stay best friends even when we are 93 years old and wear adult diapers hahaha(: I love her so much. and now i will show you my very favorite pictures us. they make me smile(:

I will love you on your birthday, i will love you better then them...

Pretty much
i need a nap....
i keep telling myself that everyday
and i always try to fir one in
and then i get on here
or i have more homework than planned
i feel like im slowing going into a permanent deep sleep...

              My father and I are officially going to make an 8 track ukulele cover free album. im so excited(: we have most of the track list done. we are gonna do stuff like johny cash, crash test dummies, and mumford. im excited to finally get my voice out there. im not like trying to get big or anything like that i just want to finally do this and its so much fun to do with my dad(: I hope that you will all download it when its out and tell me what you think(:

Its finally the new term

and just like i thought

its not that great

i have harder classes on top of my already hard classes

i might lay down and die

but  soon ill be done and then it will be summer

and my classes next year will be fantastic(:

Fingers Crossed...

              I am getting really excited about life. i might have the opportunity to either go to India or Costa Rica this summer(: and i think that would be the coolest opportunity and that being on my college resume is just the plus(: im so excited for college in a year and a half. i just hope i actually get into utah state considering i dont do anything sports or team wise. so lets hope they see all the other stuff and think im a pretty nifty person

Dallen

Veazie

going

Sweethearts

to

with

Excited

Bow tie

so 

freaking

dance

im

go

Dress

cute

ahhh(: