Missionaries.

I slept through the first session of conference this weekend.... and then woke up to frantic texts, tweets, and facebook posts. When i found out about the change in the missionary ages my hearts stopped a little bit.

The first person that popped in my head was Kaden.... He is going to leave next freaking summer. I have been crying all morning. All of this is so awesome and crazy but so very overwhelming. Kaden will be gone is 9 months. He will be gone for 24 months. That is a very long time and it still has yet to sink in. Im a mess....

And just an hour ago i got a call from morgan, my bestfriend and cousin. She has decided to go on a mission. I have never cried so hard in my entire life. I still have a headache from it.

Im am so overwhelmed with joy for two of my very best friends. They mean the world to me and i am so proud of them. I also am scared out of mind what im going to do with out them.

 Morgan has always been my go to girl for my problems and she is one of the very few people who knows me for real. She has supported me and loved me through every trial I have had in my teenage years and now my early adult years. She gets me and i get her. She better write me every week!!

Kaden has been my closest friend for the last 2 years. He was the best boyrfriend i could have asked for through my senior year. He cares for me so much even if he cant show it not that we are broken up. he has the sweetest heart and he is so excited to go on his mission. I couldnt be more happier for him and he will be an amazing missionary.

I just cant believe what one day can do. Today has changed my life. Im so happy for everyone that is deciding to go on a mission. I personally dont feel like its for me... I feel a bit pressured and overwhelmed about it because everyone else seems so set on going but school is my thing right now. I want to find my self and figure out who i am and get an education so i can make a living later in life.

I love my savior and conference and my best friends.

I hope all of you have a great weekend(:

Late Starter...

Sorry i havent been on in a while. been to flustered with the first week of school to even remotely have a thought about this little blog of mine.

My first week was good. Im so freaking excited about my art 1020 class. I know i was meant to be an art major cuz im acutally excited to get up at seven every monday and wednesday to go to that class. and im never excited to get up at seven ever in general. so thats a plus to my life right there. oh but not o excited about the nude drawing sessions i may have to take.... ewww i dont even like looking at my self naked in a mirror. im a never-nude if you will (Arrested development product placement)....

But I hate my other classes but thats because i decided to get all my science generals out of the way.... good idea? maybe... maybe not. well see.

I also signed up for institute and am taking the marriage prep class... i am actually quite excited about it. i didnt take it with any friends... actually i didnt take any classses with any friends... Idk why i did that... whatever. anyway i think im the only freshmen in there. and there is already an engaged couple in there and most of the other boys and girls sitting together in that class are holding hands. kinda funny to be honest. and im sure the other half of the people in there are married and just didnt bring their spouses along... but i am really excited about that class. the teacher seems way cool and I may be young but i think i really need this class.. i dont plan on getting marrie anytime soon but I think its something i need for later and i might really learn something useful for my future....

So first day of school... here it is in the only way i can really describe it...:

Nerds Unite!

Went to my first college party last night! and must say it was pretty awesome! Our roommate Ryley knew some older guys that were having a open mic bbq party. so we went hoping to maybe make some new friends. at first we didnt talk to alot of people.... we were like the only freshman so most people just ignored us haha. but after a while we met this kid josh. he was super nice! he gave us a tour of their house and helped us meet a couple more people. he was a total geek too! he has a record player and reads the walking dead comic books and loves star wars and watches how i met your mother and dr horrible. pretty cool guys! (promise im not planning on getting a boyfriend or anything just making a friend) anyway then we met this really attractive kid named tyler, he was super nice, and he had glasses!! haha just saying. all of us have a little crush on him hahaha but yeah great party. I also got the guts to play in front of a buncha strangers for the open mic. i sucked and messed up a bunch haha but whatever i dont even care anymore. haha but yeah fun night. woo hoo. good day!