Fresh-woman in love.

Today I moved in to my dorm at Utah State. i havent written in a couple months because life has been crazy and not too interesting..... I guess i went on that europe trip, and graduated, but my only responses when people ask how those things were are "aweome!" "crazy!" "so fun!" and "the scariest thing of my life"... so yeah my life was pretty perfectly adequite this summer.... and now im all grown up and living the life.

oh! and ya know im in love with the best guy i have ever met in the whole entire world.... Kaden is the best thing that has ever happened to me. he is my best friend and no guy will be better for me. cheesey i know but whatever! i dont care "Im in love, Im in love, and I dont care who knows it!" but really. and guess who likes him alot and wants me and him to work out in the long run? MY FATHER. he never likes the boys  i date or event the fact im dating boys... its crazy.

long story short.... me and kaden had to break up before i moved out.... so like two days ago.... and im pretty much a mess... i feel bad for jade (my roomate) who has to deal with me right now. i have kept it together pretty good except for the night he kissed me goodnight and my way to work the next day.... i hate crying but everytime i think about it i tear up.... i hate feeling like this and honestly i havent felt like this is in so long (over a year) i forgot how crappy it felt. he made me so happy and its my fault we had to break up. its the worst feeling i have felt thus far. but i will try my hardest to make it work. i mean if my mom had it her way she would make up get married right now! she adores him. my brother told me he wants him as a brother in law. he looks up to him so much and wants to be like him. carter is a brat to him but i know she likes him. i just feel like a better person around him. he makes me smile and we fit together like puzzle peices. we laugh, we pretend to argue, he is protective and i love it. anyway ill shut up about my feelings.

Today i moved in! i was one of the first people here. My mom and my aunt brought me up. I love them to death! we had so much fun. they kinda looked like my lesbian moms hahaha it was pretty awesome. i brought alot of crap and i have never been so tired and sweaty just from walking up stairs... i just finished setting up my room an hour ago. i really like it. everything fits in the room. its not as crappy as i thought. my mom cried in the end and i told her to stop. haha its was cute tho. and i miss my room. haha i miss my boyfriend. i miss having food all the time. i miss home cooked meals. i miss my friends... but im excited and this will be an adventure.

these are just the beginning of my life adventure:

goodnight universe. you and all your tragic mysteries.

A Knight for a Dork.

I'm really excited for prom everyone(: I get to go with my epic boyfriend/Best friend of all time(: AKA Kaden Stanley Cook. (: I love this kid and Im so happy to spend my last highschool dance with such a rad person(: he has told me he is taking me but said he still has to ask me in a cute way. He told Becca and she said it fricken adorable so that makes me way excited for whatever the heck it is(: also, my dress is from the eighties. like 60 candles, pretty in pink, kind of dress. Its a dorky idea but I kinda digg it. It looks a little something like this:

super old school.... anyway I just wanted to share.(: 

Forever and Ever.

Yeah.... I haven't blogged in months. been too lazy but also much too busy. haha oh well.

I have been sorta living up my senior year... depends how you look at it. haha
I love being able to chill most of the time and not having that much work.
I like being able to be in charge of taking pictures and working on things that I personally love to work on.,
but at the same time I have hit a social wall and I am losing my friends slowly but surely.
If I'm not hanging out with Kaden im sitting at home watching tv.
I dont get invited to do things with my friends anymore.
I dont care really except for the fact that deep down its killing me.
and maybe its just my fault. im not really sure but I have also decided to stop trying.
We are getting so close to graduating, and really i will probably never see 80% of them again.
of coarse I will still go visit mitch and his family and call up jazmin once in a while.
I just have reached the point of mountian. about to jump off into college and the rest of my life.
Highschool is only a tad bit of you life and even when it feels like you whole world its not

thanks for listening(:

falling down stairs.

Hell week is over. homecoming was hell. I don't even think hell describes it. but for lack of a better word it was hell. anyway it was just a crazy. im just happy by best bud Katana slept over and made crepes with me because i didn't have a day date. Kaden's gma died last week and the funeral was on homecoming day but we had no control over it so i just spent the day with Katana. so we slept in, made crepes, ate chickfala and after i went and took homecoming pictures for another group. they turned out just like i wanted! i love em(:

Anyway the dance with Kaden was awesome(: he is so freaking cute and awesome(: afterwards we went to betos with katana, her brother, eileen, and nate. we dicovered that betos is haunted by a Whore names Chatta (like the drink?) haha(: its was just a great night(:

Im also starting to really used my new canon film camera and taking a step up my photography. im trying to enter more competitions and work on quality. its fun(: and Katana is my model for like anything when i need her which is rad(:

Oh my goodness. I Officially have a legit senior trip. My good friend caden welsh has invited to me to go on an educational tour with him for lehi.... We are going to Italy and Greece!!!! Holy crap I can't believe it's happening. I'm just freaking out(: ahhhh...

Thats about it kids. too many thing happened over the last couple of week so a cant remember most of it.
have a good day children(:

shmoooooo....

last two days have been amazing. beach and food, food and beach, and gettin tannnnn(: its been pretty amazing. i would live on a beach for real. i want to learn to surf and boogy board. i might try it tomorrow(: yesterday we sat at seal beach for the day. we happended to find a real life god.... we call him ryan (dont know his real name)

 yes i am fully aware he is beautiful. oh and up close almost made me pass out.

and then went to aculpulco for dinner. the outside where you sit at eat was right on the docks in the marina where the boats were. it was beautiful!

 then we saw cowboys and aliens.... such a good movie(: but i will never complain about movie costs in utah.... 11 bucks a ticket!!! ridiculous. but awesome movie none the less(: we just got into san diego today... we ate at the deck which was seriously on the shore of laguna beach. another amazing sight...

after that we just sat and tanned on the beach right below. after this beautiful day at the beach we got to our hotel, showered, and then (because of our amazing pal brandon) we had free tickets to Sea World!!!(: it was way cool(: we saw the infamous Shamu (i call him shmooo, it sounds funnier) (:

 (the sesame street section of sea world was his favorite...(: )

(biggest fish i have ever set my eyes on....)

good last two days i must say(:

The Devil's Armpit.

Today we (meaning my mother, kilee, storm, and I) left at 4 in the morning to get our rental car and make our way to the great state of california...(:
we also had to pick up Tamara from The Middle of Nowhere, Utah.
and so then our journey started....

we stopped for some breakfast.... and a photo opportunity......

The Cheveron Beaver Giant Rocking Chair!!
it was awesome(:

And then as we went on we tried to sleep (failed)
well kilee and storm got some sleep but i had none
we had some interesting stops on the way though.....
Barstow was one of these beautiful stops. we more like the devils  armpit.
it kindof reminded me of like china town or something.
this small rest stop seemed to be able to fit a icecream shop, a mcdonalds, a panda express, a deli, and like 4 different souvenir  shops
it was ridiculous. if you are claustrophobic, steer clear.
it also smelled like beer and Chinese food
and it also had a little gypsy dude scary machine called zoltar.
it kept looking right at me.
freaking messed up.

any way we finally arrived in long beach at like seven ish.
all cozy in our hotel with mothers and daughters sharing beds and storm sleeping on the floor.
at the very moment he is hiding  under kilee's covers. he is so skinny you really cant even tell its awesome(:

 Palm Trees

Oooooh, Aaaaaaah 

 Kilee and her obsession

 Kilee at five in the morning

Us loving our buick rental car(:

i will have more to share later but ya'll have a good night(:

life's too short to even care at all, oh woahhh....

New Favorite Band:
A very attractive fellow from lehi that i met on the bus home from dixie offered to show me this band.
they are called Young the Giant. quite smashing band(: i recommend them(:

I have not written in a while. like at lease two weeks haha still having a writing block

I will however share with you things that have happened recently...

got back from girls camp just saturday. it was my last year and for some reason it was the one with the most bad luck. haha it rained. our tent leaked. we had to set up a new one. and i was the worst mood really. im good at hiding it tho haha(: it was generally an ok year at girls camp and im glad i went!

I am still a thing with Sugar Daddy(: im worried about whats gonna happen during school but i guess we will see. I still really like him but im not really keen to the idea of a boyfriend. just doesnt sound like the best thing for my senior year haha.  and i want to date around still. especially that really cute kid from lehi that is my music soul mate haha(: but anyway i just hope this all goes well...

im moving up to the loft this week!!(: im so pumped.... i should probably be up there now cleaning out the closet haha but ill get to it. i also got some new sweet paintings for my walls(: one is this metal jesus painting thing and then a comic book pic of lips haha. way cool.

next week im going to California! im so ready to just be on the beach(: me storm and kilee are gonna have a blast(: we better considering we will be stuck in a car with each other for a good 24 hours all together haha(:

Also at our meeting this morning me and mckilee got our theme for homecoming approved!! oh yeah masquerade.... so rad(:

I hope you all enjoy your last month of summer(:

some pics ive taken recently::

That Girl has Some Lady Balls.

this first "official" week of summer has been... super rad(: spent the first third with my best friends, the second third with a new kid (that i possible have a thing for (long story, kinda messy,ask me later)) and starting today the last third studying for the ACT and celebrating my uncle on saturday night. i dont know about you guys but my week has been great(: this month is going to be short on cash but i think i can manage. as long as a dont drive and i dont eat out (unless i have gift certificates) then i will be set to save up for the month of JULY which is gonna be uber crazy(: i get to go to Dixie with my stud co, road trip to california with some of my best friends, and then my last girls camp. the girls camp thing is ehh not that exciting but man oh man i am excited for Dixie and California(: this summer is going to be awesome(:

no on the subject of this said boy... I call him sugar daddy. not because i made that name up... but because he specifically asked me to call him that haha(: he is a really funny kid and i like hanging out with him. we never run out of things to talk about. he is a cute kid.(: i like him(:

to my best friend morgan: i cant believe your going to college in a week... Im gonna miss you alot so you better come visit a lot(:

to my other best friend kilee: i wish you would come back from girls camp already,,, i miss your face(: we will hike a mountain when you get back(: and we have many stories to swap(:

these are the many photos to show how my first week and a half of summer went(:

 {henna tatoos for the boys, me and my best bro, carnival, seven peaks, adventures with mo, kaden, and cole, driving, and demo derby}
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with natural curls and lovin it,
Tay ✌♥☀