Flash Floods of Pain.

So yesterday i went on a date with a boy. we will call this boy weirdy beardy. or WB. anyways. we hadnt hung out or even talked much since a certain event occurance last fall. I thought this would be a great time to catch up and maybe become better friends like i had been wanting for a long time. well we did go on this date, we went and saw kung fu panda, split a banana split, and went up to "makout out point" to talk. no makeout i promise haha. but he talked about his life problems for a while and i listened. he got choked up about his brother on his mission. which was really cool. we talked about testimony stuff and about the church. it was a really nice talk. but then he talked about us and some things that he should have told me a long time ago. I wont go into much detail but lets just say it was really hard to hear.  and since this same kinda thing has happened to me before with other guys, it hurt alot more. I mean i try to see the best in people (especially boys i have feelings for) and i try to push aside the things wrong or the things that need to be fixed. I want people to be as good as i see them. but of coarse they never are. WB just told me pretty much i was a rebound and how terrible he felt about it. he wished he picked a better timing for all of it. it was horrible timing and if we had dating, for example, right now, all of the fighting and hate would have not happened. ( or at least 100 times less). I really hurt to hear. I was bawling like a new born baby. but after all of it.... i forgive him. I mean i cant do anything about it now, its done, and you know what? i dont regret it. I cared about WB and still do.

times like these really make you think.... what is everyone else thinking right now? are they faithful, are they real friends, or do they just pretend. either way, why freak about it. there is absolutley nothing you can do but see the best in them and hope.... hope its the real thing.

With immense gratitude and accommodation,

Tay ✌