Sweaty Sunday.

All of our roommates are not moved in! and honestly i couldnt be more happy. we have the chillest roommates. everyone is super chil, way nice, and not annoying is anyway. Im so happy its not even funny. and we met all of tanners roommates today. they are the funniest kids ever. we made them waffles for dinner. pretty sure they love us. they are making us dinner next sunday... like i really really hope that they will be our main guy friends but they are so popular that i have my doubts. i just need solid guy friends so bad to keep me going. I need people around that generally care. but well see... we also have a creepy stalking kid living on our floor who happened to go jr high with us which is crazy... he follows us around. not to joyful about that. but anyway we are getting bikes tomorrow and going shopping for food and stuff... other than my crappy feelings under neath it all everything is really good for the second day of college. feeling good.

but actually Its been really hard today. its been good but behind this exterior i have been struggling. i went to church today without having my family there. I texted kaden last night and that was really hard and we had a emotional conversation. and im freaking out alot.

we had our first college party tonight... they boys invited all of the freaking ward to their dorm to watch hunger games, no one watched the movie of coarse but we fit like 50 kids in one room it was pretty awesome.

pretty ok day. kinda wanna get asked out on a date just to feel wanted again.... i want to feel pretty and feel like someone enjoys having me around.... I have known that feeling for over a year and its hard to go back....
wish me luck.
goodnight universe.