Today I moved in to my dorm at Utah State. i havent written in a couple months because life has been crazy and not too interesting..... I guess i went on that europe trip, and graduated, but my only responses when people ask how those things were are "aweome!" "crazy!" "so fun!" and "the scariest thing of my life"... so yeah my life was pretty perfectly adequite this summer.... and now im all grown up and living the life.
oh! and ya know im in love with the best guy i have ever met in the whole entire world.... Kaden is the best thing that has ever happened to me. he is my best friend and no guy will be better for me. cheesey i know but whatever! i dont care "Im in love, Im in love, and I dont care who knows it!" but really. and guess who likes him alot and wants me and him to work out in the long run? MY FATHER. he never likes the boys i date or event the fact im dating boys... its crazy.
long story short.... me and kaden had to break up before i moved out.... so like two days ago.... and im pretty much a mess... i feel bad for jade (my roomate) who has to deal with me right now. i have kept it together pretty good except for the night he kissed me goodnight and my way to work the next day.... i hate crying but everytime i think about it i tear up.... i hate feeling like this and honestly i havent felt like this is in so long (over a year) i forgot how crappy it felt. he made me so happy and its my fault we had to break up. its the worst feeling i have felt thus far. but i will try my hardest to make it work. i mean if my mom had it her way she would make up get married right now! she adores him. my brother told me he wants him as a brother in law. he looks up to him so much and wants to be like him. carter is a brat to him but i know she likes him. i just feel like a better person around him. he makes me smile and we fit together like puzzle peices. we laugh, we pretend to argue, he is protective and i love it. anyway ill shut up about my feelings.
Today i moved in! i was one of the first people here. My mom and my aunt brought me up. I love them to death! we had so much fun. they kinda looked like my lesbian moms hahaha it was pretty awesome. i brought alot of crap and i have never been so tired and sweaty just from walking up stairs... i just finished setting up my room an hour ago. i really like it. everything fits in the room. its not as crappy as i thought. my mom cried in the end and i told her to stop. haha its was cute tho. and i miss my room. haha i miss my boyfriend. i miss having food all the time. i miss home cooked meals. i miss my friends... but im excited and this will be an adventure.
these are just the beginning of my life adventure:
goodnight universe. you and all your tragic mysteries.
